Just took the best nap and I totally deserved it cause I kicked ass in all my exams today :)
And I’m not sleeping at all. I keep dreaming that nothing bad happened and that I come home and everything is fine, and then I wake up and am so mad at myself for thinking that. And then I finally fall asleep again and I just think of all the terrible things that did happen. It’s just a battle in my dreams between what I wish happened and what really did happen. I’m glad that things did happen, maybe not the way that they did. I really am, I just wish that my dreams would agree with that statement as well. I’m so sick of losing sleep over something that I have no control over and shouldn’t even be concerned with. And on a side note I kind of hate myself because I have no idea what to do with this political science exam I’m about to take. Or the journalism one later that I haven’t even begun to study for. I just want this day to be over and to fall into a deep, uninterrupted sleep.
On the first day:
On the last day:
It’s been ages since I’ve been able to enjoy the weather. I’ve mostly been avoiding the sun since spring break, just trying to push through to summer. Only 3 pages left on this paper and 3 exams stand between me and relaxation.
And they stopped and had lunch without me. What the heck? Lot of love guys.